A New Year hath Come ..!!

Its that time of the year when everyone is busy taking up resolutions … Like every year , the most popular one among the guys here is bidding cigarettes and alcohol a fitting goodbye ( Did I mention that they are going to celebrate this benign decision of theirs in company of whiskey itself … ) … To follow it up , there are guys who have made a promise that they are going to spend some quality time with books … Some guys are taking up an oath to be more faithful in their relationship … while some are promising that they will do whatever it takes to go into a relationship this year … at least … 😛 😛 …

To sum things up , everyone is very very excited at the advent of 2011 … New year wishes have already started piling up from every corner of the country … There is buzz all around about how this new year is going to reshape things … Students are busy cursing the university for scheduling the exams to ruin their new year celebration ( We got lucky this time around … Unlike last year , when we had an exam on 1st of Jan to ruin things , Mr. Exam Controller decided to spare us this time .. ) …

And I am no exception to this ecstatic environment … Like everyone else , I am also touched by this sudden flare of energy … And very much looking forward to 2 O’ 11 … Not because 1st of Jan will revive memories of three years back … Not because an array of exams and results are waiting for me … Not because the new year hype has got hold of me … The reason being that I really want to start it all fresh from 1st of Jan … I really want to start looking at things with new perspective … And I really want to retrace the faulty route I managed to set my foot on , a while back …!!!

No new year resolution for me this time too … Coz nowadays I take up resolution every other day … And I really try to abide by them … 😉 😉 😉 … 2010 was significant for me in more than one ways … The first and foremost … I , once again , started believing in myself … I started believing in the invisible strings that were weaved all around me … 2010 helped me make up a lot of new bonds … helped me strengthen the old bonds further … and taught me how to let go of the loose broken bonds I managed to linger on all this while ….

For me , this year was marked both by “the beginning” and “the end” … the beginning and the end of the two very different things … but very important in the context of my life , nonetheless … My learning curve is growing exponentially and with the speed I am going right now , I fear the graph might burst sooner than later 😛 😛 😛 😛 …

And did I mention that like everyone else , I am also going to end this year on a high ???? 😀 😀 …. both physically and psychologically …. Sayonara 2010 … Welcome 2011 … Wishing all of you a very happy and prosperous new year .. 😀 😀 … Keep taking up resolutions … That is the best thing about the new year … Everyone has got something or other to make a promise … A real fun game it izzzzz .. 😉 😉 …

On a lighter note

Do you know what is the best thing that has happened to me of late ???? … I have realized that whoever said that “Everything happens for a reason” did hit a bull’s eye … am not referring to any materialistic stuff or any recent incident in particular … I am just reflecting upon the things I have learnt in the last year or so …

Yes I was indisposed to everyone who consoled me by saying that “Time heals everything” … I was averse to anyone and everyone who tried to empathize with me … May be I was reluctant to come out of the hole I dug up for myself … May be I was addicted to that feeling … But I am no more regretting any of those bad experiences … The reason being very simple … Its all been more than a great learning curve for me … And as Mr. Ethan Mascarenhas very rightly said …. “Go on break the rules; Forgive quickly ; love truly… And never regret anything that made you smile … :-)” ….

I am no more regretting the mistakes I made … Because they were just a milestone on my road to perfection … And yes they indeed were … I have been very good at times ( More than good for many people’s comfort ) … And have done many bad things as well … I have been hurt many a times … And I have hurt quite a few people too by some of my deeds … So no point blaming anyone … Do your homework … Introspect … And then point a finger at someone … Only if you are dead sure that you haven’t done anything that can allow others to point one at you …. Don’t be a sweetheart all the times … A blend of good and evil is must … If you want to survive , that is … 😉 😉 😉 ..

There came a time for me when I was caught in the undertow … I was trying to run away from my past … But somehow I lost my way while scurrying along … It was an unfamiliar domain … Wrong , but nonetheless , luring … And by the time I realized that this is not the place to be , I was completely sucked into the immorality of the surroundings … I didn’t know what to do next … One part of me was begging me to leave … Other part was too proud to give it a hearing … One part of me knew the harm it could bring … Other part was too occupied with itself to prognosticate … One part of me was definitely right … And other was more than wrong …

Guys .. I was lucky enough to listen to the right part of mine … I was lucky enough to escape with minimum of damage … I was lucky enough not to lose my way and my originality amidst all the rush … Just make sure you do the same … Don’t get yourself attached to the material …

“Go on break the rules; Forgive quickly ; love truly… And never regret anything that made you smile … :-)”

The Transition

It was this very time of the year … The year was 2007 … B.Tech 1st semester … My attendance was just next to the optimum … I had scored heavily in the sessionals … My assignments were as good as it could have possible been … Yet I was anxious … Yet I was apprehensive … Yet I was skeptical about my internal marks …

And 3 years later … right now as I sit at my desk writing this blog … I have less than 15 percent of attendance this semester , to support my cause … Neither have I created an awesome impression in front of the faculty members … Bunking the final internal viva didn’t help either … My name being listed in the defaulters’ list , one of the “Mr. I know it all” faculty has already announced a mind boggling zero out of twenty for few of us … Plus I have almost forgot what the word “assignment” exactly mean …

But still .. I don’t give a damn about how many marks they are going to give me … I really wish to check if the guy does rate us zero … I really wish to see how low can I really go in terms of internals …

After a successful R and D analysis , I have come out with a few interesting facts supporting this acute transition … When I entered this thing called B.Tech , I was under the illusion that marks are something that represents the only parameter to rate your knowledge ( Don’t blame me for this … This is what we are taught in 10+2 in our schools ) … Don’t worry .. I am not going gaga about our education system once again … Have already done that a zillion number of times .. 😛 😛 … But with time many of us realized that this is not something which is going to be the key factor in the long run … And for the few unlucky ones who still date the books 24 x 7 … I feel really very very sorry ( No offence intended 😛 😛 ) …

Another reason for my abnormal behavior in the first semester was the fact that I desperately needed a branch change … Computer Science was the thing I aimed at , all the way … And did I achieve the same .. Yes I surely did … And with time I knew how lucky I was to jump from Electronics to Computers … Not because the amateur hacker who used to hack orkut accounts for some time pass was turning into a professional hacker … Not because the budding web designer was becoming the next big thing … With time I found out that the course I was pursuing ( UPTU + CSE ) was the perfect platform for any kind of preparation … Minimum input , maximum output … 😉 😉

Pre semester exams have commenced from today … I have already bunked today’s exam … The only thing that is crossing my mind every now and then is FMS ( and not the semesters or pre semesters …  accompanied by one or two trivial matters that maintain a permanent residence in a corner of my brain 😛 😛  ) , which is scheduled to be held on sunday …

And here I am .. sitting at my work desk writing this blog .. looking back at the way things were .. and the transition it has undergone to come to this .. And I am sure that the things will further change when I start with my MBA or PGDM or whatever it might be … in which direction , I can’t predict as of now .. Because I have learnt that the one thing that never changes … is the change itself … 😉